What is my why

I love reading the signs during a race. They provide a good distraction. Most signs are funny and makes me smile. Apparently, smiling makes you run faster. It’s true.

Here are some of my favourite signs:

  • Toenails are overrated
  • Pain is temporary, Instagram is forever
  • Seems like a lot of work for a free banana
  • Remember, you paid for this
  • My mom is faster than your mom
  • Run like someone just called you a jogger
  • PAIN is the word for BREAD in French

Some signs are thought provoking. I love that they give me something to think about, often long after the race is over.

One of the most thought-provoking signs that I saw from the Scotiabank Marathon was this:

Remeber Your Why

As we ran past this sign at around the 25k mark, both Lisa and I laughed out loud and asked ourselves, “What is our why?” At that moment, it seemed like such a ridiculous question.

After the marathon, after I had some time to let everything sink in, this question came back. What is my why? The answer that kept on coming back into my head was: it’s complicated.

It’s complicated because there’s not just one ‘why’.

It’s complicated because i don’t think people get it unless they experience it.

It’s complicated because there are so many emotions.

It’s complicated because I don’t think I will ever be able to adequately put all the emotions into words.

Here are just some of the reasons.

I run because:

  • I can
  • I look forward to running
  • Running is better than not running
  • Running makes me feel stronger and more confident. I feel like I can conquer the world
  • Running makes me happy
  • It’s one of the most efficient ways to burn calories
  • My clothes fit better. It feels amazing to have a ‘flat-ish’ tummy
  • I can do it on my own terms. I run as slow or as fast as I choose to. I am the gas and the brakes. It’s all me. No one else.
  • I am competing against myself to be better, faster, stronger. To beat yesterday.
  • I am redefining my limits. Setting a new bar every day.
  • It makes me realize I can do hard things
  • I love everything about racing including training and preparing for races
  • I love crossing the finish line, especially when I can finish strong
  • I want to qualify for Boston one day
  • I have an amazing running community who keep me accountable and who inspire me every day
  • I love runchatting
  • I’m able to inspire and motivate others to become more active or just bore them to death with my running stories.

Those are all very positive reasons why I run but, to be totally honest, I also run to escape from life. It’s an escape from work, from responsibilities, from decision making, from family, and even from myself.

When I’m running, I don’t have to think about anything else. I am nothing but a runner. I’m just focused on putting one foot in front of the other. I don’t have to think. There is a certain simplicity to running that I love.

So yeah, it’s complicated.

2 thoughts on “What is my why

  1. Lily's avatar Lily

    Great reflective post. Knowing your why and remembering it will keep you running longer and stronger. You should write a post “Everything I learned in running…” (like Kindergarten). I often thought of that. I know I have learned much about myself and the Christian journey through my running experiences.

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